I remember the study skills workshop , we took a test and it said im an 's' personality type . That means my greatest fear is change . Yes , i verified , and i think my greatest fear is indeed change . Cause my life's changing , i dont know if for the better , but it isnt to me . Prolly getting more matured , so what ? Things isnt the same . Im still being me , right ? But why is it , that friends are disappearing . I can gain friends and keep them easily last time . Whereas now , its gain and lose . Or losing friends i got way back . Fuck , this isnt right . I hate feeling this way , i hate thinking so much , i hate the way things have changed .
I want my life back , i want my friends back , i want my bestfriend back , i NEED the cheerful me back . The silas that had no worries , being cheerful . The one that thought friends can talk to me if they really wanted to be friends , and leave if they didnt really want to be friends . Maybe , just maybe , im so afraid of changes , that im trying my best to protect , to keep all my friends .
Let it go Silas , friends come and go . Love what you got , remember what you had . Learn from your mistakes , and never regret .


PS : NOT MENTIONING ANYONE HERE

♥ 6/22/2010 01:18:00 AM