School today , pe first period , had some rugby module .
Total waste of time , made my shoulder hurt again -.-
After that played soccer for a while , ran out my frustrations .
Rest of the day is boring lessons alr . Other than POA .
Test , think can get full marks ba . Hopefully .

I should be in Amk now , but im home .
Wanted to go for training .
Left my hse , was already waiting for the bus , dark clouds came .
Called Kc , after awhile , he just hanged on me . It started to drizzle .
I was thinking if i should go , my point for the past few weeks was to see her anyways .
But i thought to myself , what if i saw her alone with them again ?
What for i give myself another reason to breakdown .
It was gonna rain anyways , cant play much .

Soon huat text me , say short of one . He told me the names , got 8 .
So i thought they just nice play half court , i go there sit and be loner ?
So i walked home , he just called me not long ago .
Yin fai went down too , so if i went , it would be 10 .
If i went , it would be full court alr . PLUS , IT DIDNT RAIN . DAMN .
PS people , i thought your just nice 8 for half court .

Life's a bitch .
I used to have so many groups friends , so many activities . One time of the day can message up to 6 people .
Now , it's ALL GONE .
Noone to text , noone to go out with , noone to play with .
Yes , i do have friends in school and all . But i've lost the other friends i messaged and went out with .
I still have friends , but we dont keep in contact anymore .
Right , it's a battle with myself now , my brain doesnt know what to do , not to mention my heart . 
I'm stuck on this spot , rooted to the ground , smacked in the face with all thats happening .

♥ 3/31/2010 07:49:00 PM

Wellwell , went to school today .
Didnt want to be as sian as i was last friday . So i went to class , intending to smile .
BUT , they ALL sibei sian . NB . So , i had no choice , sian lo .
Thought of stuffs again . Bullcrap , its not a good idea to think of that in school .
Then lessons , blahblahblah , as expected i couldnt concentrate .
Lucky never really teach new things , otherwise im screwed .
After school , sports heats , inter-cca .
Second time going there to wait alr , in the end , rain .
WHA LAU ! Pissed off . Before that receive the sms alr sian , then this .
So mood totally off . Went to see basketball training , didnt attend .
Left school , home , prepare , off to amk .
Played full court . Just nice enough people .

Talked to Zirui today , about everything , both lost .
Talked to Jiale too , caught up abit . Training together soon yeah (:
Left hip is hurting now . God's answering my prayers(:
Update again ba .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM ! 
(Sorry im so sian for your birthday , moodless)

I've said alot , and i still have more . But it'll be 'shit' to you in the end .
Im really confused now , really really confused . Why this , why that ? I have no answers to anything .
Im lost , im in a mess , im screwed up .
There's this part in justin bieber's song lyrics ,
it goes 'baby baby baby no , im like , baby baby baby no , im like , baby baby baby no , I thought you'll always be mine(mine)' so true . So meaningful .

♥ 3/29/2010 10:42:00 PM

Tomorrow's Monday again . Schooling , fuck it .
I wont even be able to concentrate .
I really hate my O's , it seriously screwed up my life .
MY WHOLE LIFE .
I cant go out as much , im so much more stressed , im no longer the cheerful and joking silas .
It screwed up my relationship(my sisters will see this , but who cares ?) . Fuck .
Fuck O's , screw O's . Why does Singapore has to be so dependent on academics ?
If not for O's , i would've more time to do everything .
Go out with friends , play ball , slack , play , make more friends , EVERYTHING .
Most importantly , i wouldn't have screwed us up so badly .

I've never felt this way before , like NEVER in my 16 years .
It's been 3 weeks but i can still think of all the memories .
Everything links to you , why ? Every small thing links , wth .
I doubt i'll ever forget you .

I've got to find back the cheerful Silas , find back my friends .
Everything's going haywire . Not good at all .
Stupid academics , you're a slut . You took so much away from me .
So much that now , i'm no longer me .

All the previous posts in people's blogs , it reminds me of the good times .
I miss the holidays at the end of last year .

♥ 3/28/2010 10:52:00 PM

Hey , back to update .
First week of school has been , i dont know . Okay i guess .
Nothing much , my class is still addicted to bridge .
Playing bridge whenever we have the time to .

Monday wednesday friday went for amk training .
Went even though my shoulder was hurting .
I should see a doctor about it soon , sometimes it hurts even when i dont move it .
Anyways , it got pulled during training again and again .
But whatever la , im still going down anyways .

Sorry people for the attitude and sian-ness on Friday . Just , yeah , sian lo .
Didnt mean for all those , psps .
Still reminiscing(?) , fucking hell , i doubt it'll ever away .

Leg hurting now , wonder why , started hurting yesterday during training .
Hip started hurting today . I wonder whats happening , ohwells .
Dont really know what to blog about , im messed up . So yeah .
Blog again another time

♥ 3/27/2010 03:16:00 PM

Heyyo !
I've got no reasons to post whatsoever (:
Maybe only one la , after today ,
school gonna reopen already . Gotta start being a mugger , a nerd .
SO , after today . I'll most probably only use the com on weekends ba .
Do miss me people (: hahah .
Everyone's sleeping earlier today , but i cant ):
Got Amaths test on tuesday to study for , gotta start now , or its gonna be another F.
Wasted my WHOLE holidays , basket .
Just lazy to study :x

Thinking of studies , damn stressed up leh , NB .
Gotta mugmugmug , learnlearnlearn , practicepracticepractice .
Ohwell , must be positive (: See the fun in studying (:
Gotta start loving to study already . hahah .
Okay enough bullshit , bye (:

♥ 3/21/2010 11:35:00 PM

Went to school for Chinese common test and chem lesson today .
Chinese common test , not say very tough what ! Why everyone complaining difficult ? o.o
Think i did okay ba , around , at least a B3 ?
Dont care la .
Anyways , went chem after that , learned Qualititive Analysis .
Still okay la , all the testing shit . Must start memorising/understanding thoroughly soon .
After lessons , fucking confused , super lot of thoughts running through my mind .
Sorry jikin , if i wasnt paying much attention to you while you were talking .
Super distracted , same stuffs over and over . Oh damn .
Macs after that , BRIDGE !
Fucking fun , let the thoughts stop corrupting my mind (:
Cant wait for bridge again ! Heehee .
Went home , used com , then did the worksheet for QA , guai i know (:

After that went for AMK training , twisted my shoulder again .
Felt as if the whole thing went out of place , BUT , continued playing .
How much can physical pain hurt ? Nothing compared to emotional ones ?
Dont know , dont care also .
Tried getting my shooting back after training , still abit wrong , it'll come back soon , hopefully .

Got tired of shooting , went to rest . STUPID BASTARD NEELIE TEO !!
Keep spamming her newly bought DSLR to take my jiaobins .
You watch out ! I'll untag all from facebook , and get yours ! Muahahahhah , you wait ! (:

Today , failed again , motive not achieved , grrrrr . Wednesday ba .

♥ 3/15/2010 11:24:00 PM

Thursday , last day of school .

♥ 3/13/2010 12:20:00 PM

Hey , here to post bout friday to today .
Friday had halfday coz of some MOE excel fest thing ,
so went out with classmates to play lan .
Super lot of things happened at the lan shop , both good and bad la .
I got FUCKING dulan at one point of time , i swear .
But yeah , played and mood got better la (:
Left after playing for 4hours :P hahah .
Went to catch a movie , Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief .
Started at 605 , ended at 810 -.- Including the ads luh , butt numb sia ! Hahah .
The movie was okay laa , but still , not say very nice ba , watch online can alr :x hahah .
Walk arnd to look for food afterwards , looked for DAMN LONG !
9 then decided on a place to eat -.- stupid crowds , hatred for you ! TSK !
After eating we back (: Great day with classmates (:

This morning , had to wake up EARLY in the morning ,
had 3on3 competition , met clement first , then coincidentally the others went to the same busstop .
So took a bus over to Tampines West CC .
Reached , registered , and then it started le . Group stage we won 4, lost 1 .
There was this game , we were winning 10-8 , they had the ball .
I went up to pressure and tapped the ball , ran after the ball and realised 2men on me .
So i  just dived for the ball , hahahahahah . WTF . Dont know what told me to do that also .
Now all the wounds on me , NB ! hahahh .
Anyways , went on to semis , won , and finals against TPSS .
Lost by 1 in the end , could've won it . Ohwells , silver is good enough (:
Another medal to the collection (:


Motherfucking tired now , came home not long only went out to eat with family alr .
So you should know how tired i am , hahah . Shall sleep soon , Ciao (:

♥ 3/07/2010 11:24:00 PM

Ohwells , back to post .
Went for training last friday , felt damn old la .
Too long never run alr , rained so did lots of physical . hahah .
My bone's hurting now , looks like the bow legs are coming back D:
Weekends , made plans with some babi to change phone (:
Intending to get the same phone , hahah .
After we agreed to it , my 'reject call' de button spoil , then when i charge ,
it auto-offed , so GG lor , cant on at all now . Best is warranty just over .
So bobian , i shall have to get a NEW phone (: Heheh .

SUGGEST PHONES TO ME EVERYONE ! URGENT

Ytd went for Amk training , played full court , shooting's waaaaay off , how to play 3on3 this sunday ?
Hahahh , shall have to get it back (:
Tatas (:

♥ 3/02/2010 04:52:00 PM